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Recent notes on New York

1. You are in every moment no longer the person you once were. You are in every moment not yet the person you have yet to become.

2. I think living in New York City for a year has aged me more than smoking cigarettes for a year has. This is the first year I’ve had gray hairs. I don’t want to quit either.

3. I sometimes hear that living in New York City with all its models and model-actresses can make one realize their unattractiveness. But in small towns or smaller cities people don’t actually understand the nuances of Being Pretty, where the pretty models are all mixed up with the regular pretty people. Of course they get confused, unrightfully comparing. In New York it is clear that you can be Very Pretty for what it is you are: A non Pretty person.

4. A thing that happened to me in New York. Once I had a meeting with some producers who were interested in me and during the meeting we talked about the idea of a ‘stage age’. This is a thing that celebrities have, like a stage name. It is apparently acceptable. Since then, here are some artists that I think are using a ‘stage age’: Lady Gaga, Beyonce, Shanel from Rupaul’s Drag Race. Who else?