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*places gif on altar to Lana* *lights pink candle*
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~*~*~*~me and mc on the beach forever ~*~*~*~*~
I have extra copies of the ‘zine i made for the ‘altars as artforms’ installation… ‘mother’, writing on the concept of mother. give me your address and i’ll send you one for free <3 rachelrabbitwhite@gmail.com
Come to Catland tonight from 7-10 pm for “Altars as Artforms” and get a free copy of my zine, ‘mother’, a piece on the concept of ‘mother’ that contains a peek into my (next?) larger project. Also, if you want the altar I made, make me an offer. I’ll accept money or not-money for it.
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1. I don’t remember looking in the mirror as a child but then maybe I avoided it. 
2. In goddess worship there exists the concept of the triple goddess, a deity with three aspects that symbolize life phases as well as the turning seasons and cycles of the moon. The Maiden, the Mother, and the Crone. The triple goddess can be further defined, each aspect having a Light and Shadow side. Mother of Darkness, Mother of Light.
3. Some goddesses possess all three life stages at once, able to age from Maiden to Crone and back again in seconds but when I’ve looked for imagery of triple goddesses they are always presented in the Maiden form.
4. The mirror’s angularity didn’t hold much power until I was a young woman.  In middle school my cousin Jennifer’s mom would pick us up in her van and Jennifer would sit in the enviable front seat. Jennifer would pull down the sun visor and slide open its mirrored compartment and keep it that way for the whole ride home.
5. I am harsh and birdlike or else bland with an extra chin. I am staring and unable to see my face properly, seeing myself as someone else or focusing on a few clusters of features until they are all I can see. My mom has told me about looking in the mirror and being shocked, remembering she is no longer young. I look and I think, what does this image have to do with me?
6. I am making an altar to the MOTHER aspect of the triple goddess. I am placing things on this altar, a prayer about the transition from MAIDEN to MOTHER— MOTHER as a metaphor, a performance. MOTHER the creator.